urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fat_ina_tutu cant be a fat dancer fat_ina_tutu 2007-08-02T04:15:14Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fat_ina_tutu:1202 2007-08-02T04:15:14Z 2007-08-02T04:15:14Z all i can say is i hate my stupidity and my self pity <br /><br />i look gross<br /><br />i am an idiot urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fat_ina_tutu:913 2007-08-01T02:28:10Z 2007-08-01T02:28:10Z I was in dance class today and I caught a glance of myself in the mirror, i looked so fat i just stopped dancing, I got soooo depressed.&nbsp; <br />After my binge this morning, I didn't eat anything else, thank god.<br />I figure if I write on this every single day I will binge less GOD I HOPE SO<br />tomorrow i am eatting only celery, for the past couple days I had some of my worst binges ever, I am surprised I still fit into my pants how pathetic.<br />I am going to be at the shore on Sunday and the thought of putting on a bikini makes me shrivel<br />I am worthless<br />on a different note, today was the last day for the guy who i was kind of making a relationship with to call me, but i knew somehow he wouldn't, i should learn that guys do the same shit and none of them are different.&nbsp; but i need to be thin by the time i go back to school, so when he sees me, he'll totally wonder why he fucked it up urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fat_ina_tutu:734 2007-07-15T23:50:47Z 2007-07-15T23:50:47Z i dont really know how this works